A Step in the Right Direction

A Step in the Right Direction

Hello My Lovelies,

First off, I want to apologise for my lack of #MHM posts but I’ve been struggling to get the motivation to write about my mental health at the moment but something happened the other day which I’m both disappointed with but also proud of, so I thought I’d share it with you

So me and ‘The Blog Squad’ planned on going to Olympia Beauty in London, we had it planned for ages and our tickets arrived roughly like a week before the event. I was so excited about going because it would be one of my first blogger events in London that I’d have made it to, because the first ever one we planned, I couldn’t go to because I was too hungover. I know, I know – Self Inflicted.

But this time round I was so excited, everything was planned and I was pretty adamant on going. I’d even tried on about 4 or 5 different outfits.

I set my alarm for 7am so I had plenty of time to get ready, although it was pretty difficult getting out of bed because it was so cold and being cuddled up with Jay was keeping me warm, but I finally got up and started getting ready.

A full face of make up … and I was having a pretty good hair day, don’t mind if I do say so myself.

I think it was about 8.50am, I was all ready to go but then … I went into overdrive.

My anxiety, was at an all time high and I was very close to having a panic attack.

I had a little lie down with Jay in hopes that it would calm me down, but before I knew it the tears were ruining that whole hours worth of makeup.

Jay was being so supportive, but also trying to persuade me to go, which I very much appreciate, because I know he only wants whats best for me.

Although, this time it didn’t seem to work. My head was just going crazy with everything that could go wrong and why London isn’t my favourite place. Theres to many people & its an unfamiliar place …

I just couldn’t bring myself to go, I’m disappointed because I feel like I let the girls down, but I know they all understand.

Its a lot for me and I will continue pushing myself until I make it, and I WILL!!

Why am I proud of myself?

I’m proud of myself because I got up early & I got ready to go to an event in a place I’m not familiar with, which I knew would be overcrowded and pretty overwhelming for me.

I had every intention of going, so thats why I’m proud.

It would have been so easy for me to just say I weren’t going when it was first mentioned but Im glad I didn’t, because it was a step in the right direction.

To most people this may seem so silly and I completely understand that, but to me its a huge step and I’m proud of it.

Stay Weird … X

Jamie

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15 Comments

  1. thenorthernwritesblog
    October 3, 2017 / 9:48 pm

    it’s a shame you didn’t make it to london, I completely understand though, London makes me a little nervous too and I don’t normally have any issues. At least you tried and maybe next time you’ll make it x x x

    Hannah @ The Northern Writes | http://www.thenorthernwrites.co.uk

    • jamieleedriscoll
      October 3, 2017 / 9:53 pm

      Thank You!! Some days are better than others, but I’ll get there again xx

  2. October 4, 2017 / 7:25 pm

    That’s a shame you didn’t make it to London! Some days are harder than others lovely X

    • jamieleedriscoll
      October 9, 2017 / 7:33 pm

      Indeed they are, but I’m always trying to improve xx

  3. October 7, 2017 / 8:06 am

    Its a shame that you couldn’t make it to London, but some days are harder than others, and its okay to have days like these!

    • jamieleedriscoll
      October 9, 2017 / 7:34 pm

      Thank You Hun, it means a lot xx

  4. October 8, 2017 / 4:34 pm

    Oh Jamie what an honest post! I’m so sorry you couldn’t make it to the event but I’m sure your friends understand! I totally get it though, that happens to me too, and London is a huge and scary place!
    PaleGirlRambling xo

    • jamieleedriscoll
      October 9, 2017 / 7:36 pm

      Thank You!! It means so much, I’m glad its not just me xxx

  5. October 8, 2017 / 7:34 pm

    you should be proud every little step you take is good an you’ll get their in your own time!

    • jamieleedriscoll
      October 9, 2017 / 7:38 pm

      Thank You Hun xx

  6. October 8, 2017 / 7:51 pm

    Jamie, this post is brilliant – its such a real and honest insight into anxiety, and IM proud of you for having those intentions – that’s 50% of the battle. You did so well in the face of all those things going on – it being unfamiliar, a big open space etc. Well done you for writing this, for conquering your fears and for being so honest – I don’t doubt your friends will totally understand, and I’m sure your blog squad are super proud of you for writing this. You rock.
    Kate x
    http://www.findingkate.co

    • jamieleedriscoll
      October 9, 2017 / 7:40 pm

      Thank You. Your words mean so much to me!! xx

  7. October 14, 2017 / 4:00 pm

    Well done for getting up and getting ready – like you said, it’s a step in the right direction. Keep being kind to yourself lovely xxx

    • jamieleedriscoll
      October 16, 2017 / 6:11 pm

      Thank You Hun xx

  8. November 25, 2017 / 11:38 pm

    Well done for being proud of yourself despite not getting to the event, it is such a step in the right direction and you really should be proud of it!

    Jen xxx

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